Falling in Love

I am slowly falling in Love with Him.

Ephesians 2:8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.

super senior

and it's like that. i'm starting my 9th semester...and ending my college years.

celebration

life is a play and we're all actors within it.

death of michael jackson

the King of Pop is dead. just like that. with a rumored "cardiac arrest," Michael Jackson has passed away. it's still surreal and mindblowing. i recall listening to some of his jams back in the day: "thriller," "you are not alone," "black and white," "the way you make me feel," "don't stop till you get enough," and of course, "billie jean." it's just so sad to sit back and think how miserable this guy's life has been in the past decade. imagine having your perfect music career tarnished by a sexual harassment/child pedophilia court case, several marriages, and depicted every other day in tabloids and comic strips with and without a nose, touching and sleeping with children. if the "cardiac arrest" is true and he wasn't on coke or some hard substance, i can only imagine how much stress this guy was going through. he's 50, a couple years shy of my parent's age. how is someone so young going to die of a cardiac arrest. all in all, rest in peace, michael jackson. rest in peace.

graduating

so many loved ones graduated this past month and weekend.
Joann, one of my closest friends, graduated from UCSD on Saturday.
Q, pledge fam and sister, graduated last month.
Taryn, pledge fam and kitty, graduated last month.
Diana, frat friend, graduated last month.
Jiah, small group leader, graduated last month.
and so many others<333

my friends are graduating and i don't know whether i should be happy or sad. yes, i should be happy for them. they have completed 3-4 years of higher education filled with gruesome tests, trials, and other tribulations. however, their happy matriculation is also my personal sign of sorrow and gloom. be it self-serving or selfish, i now know that i, too, am very near the end of my college years. i will soon be off of financial aid from the state and on my own. no longer am i going to bed labeled a dependent but a mere homebody stuck under my parent's home, mooching off of them. yes, law school right after college hasn't been on my to-do list for quite some time now but the thought have not being in school is a little intimidating and daunting. what am i to do?

june gloom.

bad luck

i have horrible luck.
i knew it and chose to ignore it.
i felt it and chose to push it away.
i had it and chose to let it go.
i hate it and chose to keep loving anyways.

bliss

i'm so happy these days. there is no good test grade, no boy, no good family news, no one even but home but me...

but i'm so happy.